Life happens… Whether you are ready or not. It was the Tuesday before Thanksgiving and I was so excited and getting things ready for my family for come visit. Then, I get a phone call from my mom telling me that my grandmother had been put in hospice. They didn’t think she had much longer to live and my family could no longer come to visit. I kind of got hit with two things at once and started stressing out. However, I told my mom not to worry at all about her not being able to come visit because it was more important that she be there with her mom. So why was it that I was still worried about things? Would I be able to ever see my grandmother again? Should I rush home to be with the family? But if I do that, will Jerrub have to spend Thanksgiving alone? Or will we just not have family at all for the first time on Thanksgiving?
As I was going through all of this, my neighbor brought his dog over for me to watch for the weekend and I explained to him everything that had happened. He told me to read Philippians 4:6-7. So I did.
I did just that and instantly felt a weight lifted off of my shoulders.
It’s funny how God gives you what you need at the very moments you need them.
Jerrub came home that night telling me he would be fine alone and that it was a good idea that I get home to be with my family. Luckily, my cousin was leaving from Florida to go back home to TN that day as well. I packed up my stuff and rode with her back for the 12 hour drive on Wednesday afternoon. I was able to say good-bye to my grandmother and she passed away on Saturday. I was also able to be there for the funeral on Monday.
I got home Tuesday sick as a dog, worrying about all the stuff I needed to get done, whether I would be able to work the rest of the week, and hoping it wouldn’t get worse. I sat down to catch up on my Bible Study and what do you know… this week’s chapter is called When Doubt Whispers ‘I Can’t Stop Worrying.” One of the Bible verses we are focusing on this week is Philippians 4:6-7. I look at it as a reminder from God that if I simply stop worrying, start praying, and continue thanking Him for all that he has done, everything will be okay.
I’ve learned that I’m going to be put in situations for the rest of my life that are difficult, but how I get through them is what makes me stronger. I thank God for his peace that he can bring me during these times so that I do not feel alone. The same way life throws you curve balls whether you are ready or not, life also goes on whether you decide to or not. Thank goodness I’ve buried myself in the word and in my Bible Study lately to be able to keep pushing forward and get past the worrying.